Sometimes it still astounds me how regular daily life can sneak up and kick me in the head.
A few weeks ago, my dr. increased a medication to help me be more alert, less tired etc. I also started taking larger doses of B vitamins and fish oil. Not a huge difference, but it's helped somewhat and any step in the right direction is a good one.
Feeling slightly less exhausted, I thought a quick run to the grocery store with Geoff would be a nice way to get out of the house Sunday morning. It was wonderful to be able to use my new glasses and not have to talk around the store looking like I had a hangover with my sunglasses on. I felt great through going down the aisles, getting the things we needed, etc. Then like a ton of bricks, I hit the wall. Dizziness, feeling overheated, naseous, and that immediate lay down or your'll pass out and fall down feeling. I went straight to the car and laid down with the AC on, (it was 57 outside but the sun was killing me), and Geoff finished our shopping.
I was really upset because this hadn't happened in a while, and I kinda thought I was past this, at least for minor things that I have been able tolerate for the most part. What did I do to cause such a huge flare up? It doesn't make any sense. I blocked out my triggers, (ear plugs and glasses) and it was only a short trip... the analysis continued all afternoon. Why did this happen??!?!!?
Today as I look back, I realize that I can't dealing with the brain is never cut and dry. If you do x, you'll get y, just isn't how PCS works. Symptoms are unpredictable. The best I can do is try to stay away from things that are guranteed to get me, and take my chances with everything else. Is spending an entire afternoon trying to figure out what caused something I have no control over, is a waste of time, and precious, precious brain energy.
So Brain... if you feel the need to be a tempermental diva, have at it. I'm done trying to guess what your drama is about. Its a waste of time :)
Good attitude!
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